pHew... sHoOpIngg

PHEW!

yep that's definitely a big one there.

mum came into house last night. full of shocking news.

she told me all that her friends had shared with her during FA.
"kalau kamu mau jadi dokter. lebih baik february aja perginya. april tu terlampu berat mer."

she did not just finish her sentence there. but she added on. and some kind of blaming me.
"tuh lah lalai gak lagi. mami sudah suruh kamu dari dulu. mer cari sekolah mer. tapi kamu bilang juga nanti nati. liat la. ndak bisa masuk sekolah bagus jadinya. bisa terbuang satu tahun."

the moment she finished her sentence, i could feel a pang of guilt hit me from behind my head. man! i should have done that. but all was too late now for everything. the only thing else which could still be done now is to pray that i'll get accepted to the april accelerated programme in trinity. because i know that it's a good school. quite prestigious. it's like if i can go to this university of melbourne. then life will be bright ahead for me. yayayaya... i know i sound too optimistic but it's true. university of melbourne has the best faculty of business in australia. hear that? not bad right? at elast better than singapore university. boring. everyday you see is the same type of people. the ****** there also not hot enough. and i'm very sure that there are much cuter ones in melbourne. even the asians i think are better looking. wow! it's going to be fun i know. i just know it.

okie... i just remembered another time when pris and me had hair fleas (kutu) in jurong. i was the one who first was having it. then pris. then eric. it's so hilarious thinking about it from now. i used to have my hair long. but because of the kutu, i had to cut it short. really short. then our guardian will wrap our hair in a bundle with our hair towel. apply some lotion to it too. i could feel it wrigling around my hair when i sleep. so i could only scratch the bit a little when i really couldn't resist it anymore. because i had a lump there on my head (hidden by my hair), i used to think that it was cancer. gorilla would show it off to the hairdresser, as though it was a treasure. however, my stomach would crinch on the inside everytime a stranger saw it. they would past comments like, eew, got see a doctor, blablabla. i was only a small shild then. they could have been more sensitive than that. so you know how it feels when a young child pressumes that she has cancer, when actually it wasn't even one? it's totally inhumane. you let her struggling to keep up with her life with the thought that she would die any minute then. and not to forget the operation when you need one. a needle already scared her. let alone an operation?! get real.

ok...back to the topic. so i went to the IDP today. it's an overseas representatives from the universities of australia themselves. so i cleared my doubts and question today regarding the colleges and universities concerned. thanks to dad and mum who followed me there, as well. if not for them both, i would not be moving on in life no further. it's really fun today. it's not meant to be a shopping day. but i did some shopping on the way to the enquiry site- orchard hotel grand ballroom level 3. (= let me tell you about my kinda MAJOR SHOPPING okay?

watson: we spent $244. wow! i know... =D i think that's a guiness record from us!
limited ed: $129 white and pink adidas shoes. (but it's too tight when i tried back at home...so maybe changing tml if there's time)

me a BIG SPENDER? obviously. maybe i'm born to be a shopping QUEEN! lolx. XD

you know what? i just felt so relieved after today. because i'd finally decided what my life's gonna be like in the future. accountant! unless if someone marries me, then a loving and loyal HOUSEWIFE or a patient and cheerful MUM! lolx. this is still my number 1 ambition! gonna married a rich, hot and caring husband! he could be a doctor (i hope) or a businessman (if not a doctor). i pray that the Lord will show me the right guy. and DIVORCE is not in my vocabulary.

played bb today. shi han was back with gewei and leetat so they joined us too. it's fun! but i think leetat was not very used to my screamings. lol! wq always seemed to be slamming onto poor little gewei. leetat looked so depressed just now because he got so little balls into the net. but nevertheless, i sure hope that they had fun. and that they are happy enough to see me. XD haha. no face!

after that, me and tin tried to ask ray, panu and wq to church. but since they got so many things on tml, we had to pass them. haix. it feels like if pris is not here, then we will also not move on in christ. she's the one who always encourage us to pray together and dare ourselves to do more for the Lord. now that she's gone, it felt quite different. it's true what tin said. lesser naggings! haha! (=

okay. that's all for today. and even though i still felt sad and scared about leaving singapore on april, i'm accepting it more and more everyday. telling myself that i could do it. that i would have a fun time there, as much as i did in singapore. so to all my friends out there, i could face you all with a big smile the next time i see you again. =D