-pls do not read this til i left for australia. give me privacy. and i will appreciate you doing that for me. thanks.-
P.s. val is going to watch movie with us this coming friday! yeah! =D phew~ since val said she could not come that time, i felt sth weird. and it was that i couldn't help but notice that there will be 3 boys and 3 girls going out that day. and it may end up like all 6 of us were triple-dating or close to that! ray and pei pei. ter and viv. then panu and noone else, but me. =X scared! like last tues' double-date'?? --' many people said so...pris, tin, lyn and val! eee... was that what panu and terence were intending to do? or was it all just a coincidence? but we are all friends, right? yea duh. i musn't think too much, like them. but honestly speaking, i do enjoy sitting beside panu at the movie last week. (= i couldn't hide it anymore.. but i'm afraid to say that i may be growing feelings for him too! ohoh... and before i forget, val kept on praising panu for being a nice boy. then she always linked him to me. she wanna be matchmaker in future issit? lol. but the thought of us getting together is frequently appearing in my mind lately. i will tunggu for his pesan untuk datang tiap hari. gw suka skl waktu dia concern care banget sm gw. even though kadang2 dia membikin hati gw ini melayang gituan with all the sweet things he sent in the smses, i try untuk jgn hope too much for it. gw rasanya makin suka sama dia nih... tapi kok waktu in the reality, gw payah banget mau make conversation sama dia ya? in sms-ing, it's like A B C. we can send send send... argh! stop it mary! you're going away already!! )= he said he would feel very sad if i go. but i think i will feel more sad! but for the best, gw cuma bisa rendam kesedihan ini di dlm hati... and to be honest, i really felt awkward arnd him and you know what's the reason? krn kyknya gw sdh punya feelings sm dia! and everytime i see him, i forced myself to put the feeling away and just be normal for a bit. i did not want him utk blg kalau dia sudah nak suka sm gw lg. i pray that it will never happen man! if he were to really do that, i will feel very very sad. maybe i will menangis berhari-hari over it. (people around me may not know this.) and our friendship may just end like that. no way i want that to happen! ever!