wHat'S wrONg wItH m3???

is it my fault or his???

i am feeling so confused now. it seems that i get emotionally hurt over the smallest things that people say about me (of course the not good ones). even though they meant it as a joke, i will treat it as real and get hurt. then i will suffer from another depression again. let's make an example of what i'm pointing out...

1) i talked back to mum's advices or naggings in a rude way.

2) i quarreled with terence about "is soccer fun?". when he insisted that he was right, and i was wrong, i was pretty fed up with him. but still, i think i can give in on my anger and so i kept quiet after that. but unfortunately, he then bersekongkol with panu to point out that whatever i said just now were utter rubbish, out-of-point. he said, "dunno what you talking about lo!" (that panu also so extra!!) grr! sometimes i just feel that he's like 'lulu' lo. their mouths are so stinko that whatever comes out off them when they're joking is hurtful to others. and yet, they still don't realise that. sux big time! i think they should be more sensitive to how other people think and feel too, instead of just pointing out their stand. or what-so-ever. okay, you, who are reading this now, may also think that this matter is nothin. see! that's also my point. i am easily hurt these few days by the slightest things. haix.. dunno what myself is typing about now. and, i also think that guys should give in to girls. if not, i will see them as a serious and disgusting man! yuck! so after all the "i am right, you are wrong!" from him, i could not be bothered to see his face nor talk to him even. i hate him! always think himself being the right one. boo~

(i hope he did not read this entry)

see~ i think from the above you can already guess what i had done or felt today huh? if not, pardon me for my vague english. band 3 de! haix... but overall, i felt really sad for being the way i am now la. bad mood!!! everything i do seemed so wrong. and everyone feels so wrong to me too! argghh!!!

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school was pretty alright today. i tried to be friendly today. saying hi to all those whom i knew of. and i kinda liked being who i am today. so i hope to continue being 'me' in the future. =D this way, i get to talk to my 'old' classmates and schoolmates and catching up with them on the happenings that i'd missed. it was pretty fun! i don't like a 'dao' person! and therefore, me myself can't possibly be one too right?! lolx~

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had chem prac today. a little failure. we didn't do the 'test for gas' part. arhh! anyway, what's done is done now. and i also don't treat the practical today as any serious work. i just go there to play with the chemicals and watch the colour changes of the transition metal solutions!! =P yeah! mr lian was not here again today. so no height and weight! (wow...i think i'd said this many times alr. deja vu!~) instead, we played badminton and basketball. supervised by mr ling. awesome! it's like free period. i was shocked that the bookshop auntie in school said that i'd grown fatter alr. she said i could have lost more weight. *depressed* she also said that my left arm is fatter than my right. really??? omg! is that really true? she looked serious though. ='( i must diet alr!! don't care!

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was going to stay back after school today for english with michelle, xue li (4/1), mei yan and seok wei. but somehow, it was called off. lucky! i immediately gan jiong home. but too bad, that girl followed me home. sad case~ den she kept on suaning me on the bus lor. i tried to towards her also but my suaning so lousy la. can't win her. nvm. i am a nice girl. i don't suan ppl! =D yeah! can't stand her! luckily xin ying was also there with me and she kinda was on my side. thnx lots girl! ;) if not for her, i think i would have been blown up on that bus. and derek was also there! what if he were to spread the incident around? omg! that's a nightmare!

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mum said that ko siang (mum's side of cousin) and oma (mum's mother) are probably coming to visit us in spore soon! my another cousin (also mum's side and he's a muslim! wow! so cool ah?!) is also coming, latest at the end of this month he said. so cool la! but i kinda was afraid of ko siang. he was very different from the cousin that i knew of in my childhood. last time, i still remember holding his hands around. but now, it seems weird and awkward between us alr. i guess it must be due to the long period of time we did not meet up bahx. but, i'm looking forward to it anyways! i miss oma! cutie oma~ haha. XD i love her!