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am i sensitive or whatever?!

*this will be a long blog entry*

but i definitely feel something's different in school now.

sometimes i noticed or felt that more of the guys in school were leering at me these days. especially those from the sec4 normal acad classes. man... i'm starting to get the edgy feeling when i walked past them. although i liked the attention...but i felt weird la! then people around me became super friendly also.. wow! what did i do that made me deserve all these special attention? i'm really amazed and confused.

however, i'll treasure the moments that was given to me. some people said...i gain it myself. =D

yesterday, pris came to my house with this queer plate of food in her hand. she brought them for us. so nice~ but after i ate them all, i realised that i'd added on weight to myself by eating. and PE was like the next day lar! height and weight somemore! gosh~ i just can't control myself sometimes..and i hate this. so, what else did we do with pris around? hix. sad to sae but yes... we gossiped! i talked a lot about AMY and hamster. god, pls forgive me for gossiping. =( anyways, then i tell her about the unusual attention in school from my friends.. i must be crazy last night! we laughed and laughed. yes, we had a heart-felt chat that night. so fuunnn!!!

i tried doing the chemistry worksheet but failed. i just don't understand the questions in the paper. and obviously, the answers. so, i gave up! the next morning, i copied from someone else.. whoops~ i'm plagiarising! it's not legal~ *tsk tsk tsk* mary!!

came down to play bb at night. rayland and daryl kept stealing my hairclip away, forcing me to chase after, if not, hit them. piak! =) rayland had a lot of pimples. i noticed under the lamplight high over the court. the pimples looked hideous! did he wash his face every night after basketball?! i wonder next time about his future... i mean... who will want to stea with such a pimply guy like him? *pardon me =(* i also didn't know daryl is a mischievous junior too until yesterday. but at least he's much more kind and matured than rayland la. he don't really disturb me unless i disturb him. hehex. panu came down slightly after that. i dunno why but he seemed so serious during the game. it's like if i didn't open my mouth to talk to him first, then the chance of him talking to me is-nil. that's how i felt... but then, why do we talk so much in MSN? anyway, then i broke his fingernail while i was snatching from him sth (i forgot alr)... he was so depressed by it. aww~ but hey! anyways, it's time for him to cut his nails alr la! so long...and dirty... well, during the game, li taught me some korean words too. cool! (bo did not came down to play though.)

elder brother: hee-yong

elder sister: o-ni

younger brother/sister: han-dong-shen

*a very bad word*: si-pel =P

i think li is a nice and caring guy. he's like a big brother to me alr. when i was bullied by rayland, he would stop them from doing so. he protected me! aww~ so sweet~

pris suspected that li may have a crush on me.

after playing, we sat around the swimming pool benches. we chatted about panu and his family background... and OMG! i found out that the "ko henry" that we noticed as the cute guy, back in few years ago at the court, was actually panu's elder brother!!! so coincidental! oh~ lyn recognised his photo first (val showed me). i was so excited about it. it's been a long time alr. and i kinda miss Ka Nin *paiseh i don't know how to spell his name*!!! lolx. apart from these, li also taught me how to sing the proper "3 Bears" song from 'Full House'. alright!

i'm gonna post the lyrics next time when i remembered it all.

ok here's what happened today...

eunice was absent todae. so jane came forward to sit together with me. she wanted to learn indonesian words so i taught her some. (alison and i talked about the differences between malaysian language and indonesian language. i find out that she used to take malay as her 2nd language in malaysia. she only started learning chinese in primary 4.) since then, for the whole day in school, jane was saying what she'd learnt to almost everyone. gosh~ hahax. jun xian kicked my chair in class today for not teaching him too! wth! so rough!! i dun realli like him since then... anyway, not to spoil my mood, i would rather stop talking about it. in class, i talked to tommy, alison, wan joo etc. these are the friends that i'd seldom talked to before. so i'm glad for the friendship we had today. it was pretty fun! except, then again, yee yew always seemed to criticise me for no reason. i hate it! he's such an ignorant person sometimes. eh, you are hurting other people's feelings you know? he said, "Nice meh?"to my wallet when wan joo showed him it. sux! anyway, i forgave him no matter what he said. next, mr lian didn't come for pe today. so tt means no measuring of height and weight for my class today. delayed to next week! =) *grins* i'm so happy. for the past few days i'd been worrying about it. and today's not even my lucky day and i'm given such luck? not bad eh?! ;) during recess, xl and yy brought me down to jaron's class to gossip. lolx. it was about some band member stuff so i was not "allowed" to have a say in it la. i could only laugh or giggle at what they were saying. there, i felt a little bit awkward. and, i could see those pair of eyes again. they were looking at me differently than last time.. moreover, when those normal acad guys walked past and saw us with jaron, they purposely nudged jaron on his back. jaron just tsked at that andrew guy i think (not sure of their names...only heard some from friends). and he actually came and leant against the metal grill after that. i was also leaning on it la.. was it on purpose? i dunno.. but it sure do feel so, to me. again, those attention from them la~ i dunno... am i paranoid? but how can it be so sudden that all these were sensed by me? i'm so confuse as to what was going on. realli~ then today at the bus stop, sohee and company waved a friendly hi! to me. wow~ then also, on the bus, they said bye! to me even though i only said so to carrie and mei yan. my! today's what day??? =/ oh! and i wanna thank mao kun for being my partner in bio prac lesson today. derek was absent too. so he had got no partner, just like me. if it's not for him, i would not be able to do the assignment and questions given. he not only provided me with the steps that i needed to take, but he also helped me in answering the questions on the paper. furthermore, he also helped me to wash my test tubes and returned my goggles back to the glass cabinet while i copied his worksheet. so good right? but he got b.o. though. sshh..

agreed to meet panu after we chatted over MSN. he forced me to buy beers for him at 7-eleven near market taday afternoon. and in the end, he succeeded in doing so. i dunno how he did it la. don ask. it was sth to do with the ice-creams that he owed me. that's a hint~ hahax. otherwise, i also promised them alr. so, i dressed up as maturely as i can be, and asked lyn to accompany me. we met panu below my block and off we go. he looked so shy after he saw me. eeee~ and he called me '30-yr-old-woman'! lolx. he jealous ah?! once we stepped out from the block, panu saw valerie and her friends by the bubble pool. i told panu to ask her along, since the beers are hers too. when he was in the middle of convincing val, lyn and i fled away! we ran towards the side gate!! lol. it was only until quite a distance on the pathway, that we noticed panu approaching. we tried to ignore him, doubling our steps, and leaving him behind as far as possible. hehex. but soon he caught up though, together with valerie and her friends. so fast~ did they float? dots... val's friends said that i was very matured-looking. aww~ maybe i'm used to it le bahx. cos i dun really have the mood to talk to them. panu went on a different route from us, stopping by at his kiddy friends. we walked to 7-eleven together though.. it was fun ahnging out with them! can crap and tease each other a lot! panu went to buy his food first and val n i into the 7-eleven store. we browsed through the beers in the fridge and decided to buy the cheapest-offered beer. 2 beers for $3.95 only. i helped them buy and pay for the 6 cans of beers. panu treated me to a packet of sweet when i sked him to. lyn shared with me a 'gulp' drink. awesome! panu was so strolling la on the way home. so slowly la~ i had to push him forward many times. hahax. val and friends were so far ahead of us.. and panu was willing to carry the plastic bag of beers when i gave it to him. hahax. =D so good~

we stopped by the fountain when we reached cg. me, val and her friends all intended to push panu into the pool. but we failed in the end after much trouble caused. he was too alert la! however, val was dao mei~ she kanna pushed by panu into the waters. she was oh so wet. her tummy could be seen la. lolx. is this what 'getting a taste of your own medicine' like? panu wanted to push me too but i was quick enough to get away. =X den i ate one of the mua-chee that panu bought from the market to eat. man! i almost ate from the spoon that he'd placed inside his mouth. the spoon he gave me to eat from one ah. gross! but he did not realise it also. anyway luckily, lyn was alert! thanks, my sista! =) you are a real help! so i took an ice-cream spoon from the mini-mart shop. when i return, gio was there. he extra la. =/ later, val and i noticed a handsome guy swimming in the pool~ hehex. so we sat on the fountain area to admire him. the guy looked at us few times! i got see! =D so happy! then few guys from deyi secondary also came to dip in the pool. val must be damn excited...cos the next thing she wanted was to push her friends down the pool too so that she could get to swim together with those guys also. right, val? lolx. jkd. then ben ho and tin too. pris also. the next thing that happened was naomi's arrival (she kept looking at panu from the time we entered the side gate la). woah! this caused a stir among us all. i can see that val's eyes were always fixed on naomi and panu. she 's like dots... so obvious that she likes panu right? anyways back to the point. we noticed that naomi kept glancing towards panu, but panu kept on hiding away from her. wth!~ i was like....what?!? why?!? lolx. so later we dragged panu to the court to see naomi. he was reluctant at first but after that he was quite agreeable to the request. naomi and friends were using the court for bb then, and so we waited outside. panu brought down the 20 ice-creams that he owed me from his house. after receiving it, i shared it with everyone. =D 1 packet finish! so fast! then we interviewed panu about the naomi thingy. however, at the end, it was gio that told us the story. hahax. but i did not think tt naomi's bad. she was quite nice, i think. but only her face was a lil fierce-looking. but when she smiles, it's a pretty face. the guys all had a say about her. negative things. not a single positive one. so what they say was nothing but, a one-sided argument. not reliable. so i'm still neutral towards her. when i talked to her about the court thingy, she was okay though. not as scary as what i thought she was. i noticed those bpssian guys looking at me and tin when we entered the court. *blush* anyways, it's injustice. they just entered the court without any concideration. so unfair! we were there first and we didn't play. hey! what is this?!! huh? actually we are quite dumb, if i think about it. why didn't we use the half-court before that? lolx. so we were trapped outside the court from 3pm plus to 5pm plus. what did we do? teasing and gossiping! melvin, cedric and donovan came later. pris left shortly after that because of her tuition. lyn and i went to buy lemonade and they followed along too. panu and co. forced me to buy them cold drinks. they made me do it! arrrgghhh!!~ we sat at the round table after that to eat and drink. stupid panu! he poked at my arm fats and then he laughed when my fats shoke. evil grandson!~ then call me 'fat' somemore. =( hurt my feelings~ anyways, then we fought in the end and i accidentally pressed my fingernails into his hand. agitated, he did it back at me. after that, i ran! trying to escape~ but i did not get to hide when i wanted to. too late!~ panu was already right behind me. he appeared the moment i turned back my head. i screamed in shock!! how did he get there so fast? crazy! =/ he threatened to grab hold both of my arms. but i 'wrestled' with him and kept my hands behind my back, away from him. gio and ben ho came later. they were witnessing the greatest bully ever. i felt like a small child getting bullied by 3 adults. i was cornered to the corner of the wall. so suay~ i could only scream in respond when he tried to 'attack'. scary! i cried out loud for mum and maid. my voice was so loud...i think the whole block could hear it clearly. lolx. i was too frightened. what can i do?! what should i do to avoid myself from gettin harmed by them?! panu somemore looked so serious lor. then, it was time for them to go meet ray to the LANgames and so, they let go of me and left. phew! i felt so relieved after that. man! i didn't know panu was so violent and unmerciful... =( it was a 'terrible' experience for me. gio even tried to kick the soccerball hard onto me. *ouch! the kick towards the wall was so mighty that i sprinted away and screamed immediately after that. panu, ben ho and gio was obviously sadists la! they laughed at me when i'm in pain! i mean...how could they? eeee... ='(

no bb tonight...cause there's soccer ppl using the court. so boring! haix... i guess i'll study after this. firstly, i'll bathe! *pinchy nose* a girl must not be smelly~ hahax. =D okay, til here for now. mum nagging le. buaiz. so late also.. 10pm plus le. yawnx!~

i hope italy will win the WORLD CUP on monday morning! come on!