cRazI or qUiEt mE??

which is better?

the quiet side of me or the crazy side of me?

been thinking about it since ytd. when i am feeling that i'm in the quiet mode, ppl will think i'm a loner and very troubled or sth. den if i became crazy mode, ppl will think i'm weird or crazy! hahahx. dunno. but i prefer the crazy side of me!!! it's so much fun than being all quiet and no playing.

but then i am turning 17 soon. so i had to behave like a maturing adult alrdy rite? but then if i really were to be more like what i would like myself to be (which is hyper), i wouldn't act like my age.. may be like a 15 or 16-year old?? but den when i think again.. i wouldn't mind being somebody younger than my age. instead, i thought it would be good. this way, you wont aged or matured very quickly. am i right to say this?

yep..so back to my main point.

so what if i am going to be 17 this year? it doesn't necessarily mean i had to act like an adult yet right? i am what i am. so back off! i'm living my world. and you're living in yours. in the middle of time. a short pause in the dimension of eternity. wow~ i still remembered this phrase tt pastor kong said. and the outside of us was just the birthsuit of our holy spirit. it's the inside that matters most. =) true?

hmms... 'eternity' is a big word huh? a period of time that is never ending.

oh gosh.. we are all actually staying in a short short pause of eternity! the rest can only be experienced after we die. wow~ awesome! =D

anyway, i will just act according to my existing mood lar. i cant force myself to act crazy when i dun want to right? and quiet when i dun want to right? just be who you really are inside! no matter how old or how young you are on the outside... =) yep. that's my mindset from now on! who cares about how others do it? well, i dont. as pastor told us before: Mind your own business. Let others be minded by others.

chem and el test today was alright. so phew! didn really study much ytd. only started studying at 11pm+ lyke tt. hahax. so thank god for everything~

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-R luv L-