wHat's wrOng wItH U!

i have this friend of mine. i shall not disclose her name as i don't want to hurt her feeling. i just hope that by putting this here, i can put my mind to ease. it happened yesterday. so dun worry my singapore friends and family, you are definitely not 'her'.
i had a cook-out dinner with few friends at her house. unfortunately, there's no ingredient in the house so i had to go back home to take it, together with her. actually, we could leave immediately after i've finished packing the stuffs, but she insisted on we staying a while more to chit-chat. however, i don't really enjoy talking to her at first because i can tell that she's judging me from the way i spoke. on the way to my house, she'd already started saying how important it is for us to speak proper english, blablabla... duh. like i dunno like that. she spoke in a way that she's bragging that a lot of caucasians like her, blablabla... then later, after we'd finished eating dinner at her place, she started asking me about people from trinity. when i answered that i dunno, she started attacking my personality. she said that i'd only known tahnee as a friend and no other. i know, of course, that she's saying it as a joke. but i dunno...looking at her expression...somehow it just attacked me. right in my heart. perhaps it's because that i am a sensitive kind of girl. but for the record, i think she's hurt many people when she spoke stuffs like that. i wanted to tell ehr so badly about this, but i always am not brave enough. because she's the kind that doesn't like people to criticize her while she can do to someone else! so unfair! i want to pray for her so that she'll be a better person. it's such a waste if she's that sociable, but she makes people awkward. that's not right.
i saw him walking across the lawn today. argh! why must i always see him! i just want to ease my feelings away first. please please please... if not, i will not be able to concentrate in class!!! hopefully, he's not in my subject class. please please please~
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