mUm's nAgg3d aLl dAy!!! prOud bUnch oF gUys!

yesterday she forbid lyn not to go down for basketball at night.
reason: because i came home very late at night always after basketball.
i was pissed off. of course...
lyn wants to play. it's also her holiday now. but yet she can't get to enjoy it as much as how i enjoy it myself despite my prelims?? isn't that a bit unreasonable? it's like saying lyn can't eat if i eat too much. i mean. come on! she herself also so big alr. she should know that it's unfair right? why must i have to argue with her first before she lets lyn play. sometimes i just feel that she's always out to pick a fight with me.
why do my mum always think that she's right? always think that she have to be the controller and we the victim? is she overcontrolling us? as for me, i think i'm big enough to take care of myself. if i stayed late at night after basketball, it's because i know that there will be no school the next day. or probably because there's a problem that i have to settle first before going home. i am big enough to make decisions for myself too right? and of course. i am wise enough to think for myself what is right and what is wrong. i am the type that don't like others to control me esp when i don't want to. so when she starts to shout and scream her way in, when i am already feeling stressed out everyday by the prelims preparation, i feel very pissed off now and then. one thing that i don't enjoy staying at home is because she always nags! she also doesn't praise me or say that she loves me. that's why i've got this repelled feeling towards her. it's like even my friends praise me but why can't she? and she's my mum. my own biological mum! i think my dad's better. even though he seldom sees us and scolds us all the time for the slightest things, he always kisses us on the cheek whenever he sees us. then he always take photos of me when i'd dressed up nicely for a shopping spree. he doesn't restrict me much. he gives me freedom. but he do give me advices so i'm still informed of the bads and goods of this world. mum, however, thinks that nagging as the only way to show us that she cares for us. she thinks that nagging = loving. no way! and if she does that all the time? NO WAY!! of course you see, that's why i don't like staying at home for too long. sometimes she even makes me feel like i'm not appreciated, just a mistake and a burden to her life. sometimes i find it so frustrating that my mother don't understand what a child really needs from a mum. but wdv. she's my mum no matter what. and as pastor kong say, as long as we make the effort to communicate more with one another and pray for things to get better, this problem will be gone.

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i am starting to hate .... and ....... these days too. not all the time, but most of the time.
.... was proud in his own way. when he sees any of us girls, he will mostly not say hi to us.
....... is worse. at least .... character is there. but ....... language use is horrendous. all the **** words willl fow out his mouth like a merlion! to us girls, he is very annoying and insensitive to other people's feelings. he speaks of those words like nobody's business and thinks that it's cool. how dumb dumb of him! unless he doesn't change, i doon't think any decent girls would fall for him. and as the saying goes, behind every guy's success is a woman. so if his woman is indecent next time, how can he ever succeed in life? right??
so last night, tin and i plan to talk to ....... but couldn't as it was pretty late and i had to get home as what i'd promised mum. so tin postponed the plan to today instead. well let's see whether we will be seeing him today or not. but shi han feels that we girls should have a talk with those three braddy bunch and not only that one guy. they were like saying, 'damn you' all the while yesterday. pissed off!
alright.
so yesterday we had a group study near the bbq area. together with pris, tin, lyn, shi han, pamm, wei quan, zi fu. if i got questions to ask, it will be answered immediately. this is efficient learning. we studied together from around 4 plus to almost 8. i love it! gonna hope that we will be doing this study group again today.
(= mug!!!~
study hard mary!!!
i'm gonna fulfil my promise, to become a peaditrician in the future, to mum and pris!
and also, to myself!
woots!
peaditrician! here i come~